This feeling.....

Sometimes i just wish that i can totally get rid of this feeling, seriously not good for me...The scent of nivea lotion, really gets me kicking for awhile, and later on the temptation of reminiscence over you reappear, trying so hard to just vanish it. So glad that soccer gets me off the random thought...why can't we be just friend rather than avoiding each other...Can't deal with that...This is not who i am...Living in the world full of hatred will soon end up somewhere down the drain...

Dreams and dilemma

Sometimes i will still get this kind of dream which i can't even explain in words. Words are of course one of the most essential and yet powerful to even end one's life...Anyway, why is this dream still running in my head. Making the brain to think of things that should not be in place anymore. So wish that peace can be fulfilled easily and no more hatred. Life would be so wonderful to see happiness scattered all over the place. Losing a friend is something that cannot be accepted just because of some uncleared issue.......

Boredom

It's been like 3 weeks in Melbourne, life is kind of bored. Apart from Uni, nothing much else can be done here. Apply for like job at McD but yet to receive any reply. Sometimes i just wonder if i had made the wise decision to continue my study rather than working. Suddenly felt like working should be much more meaningful than study. Spending substantial amount of money on studying can prove to be better for future purposes or similar regardless. I really want to get a permanent residency and work temporarily here. Develop my knowledge in current field at a place full of opportunity for in depth understanding in food science before stepping out to do my own business if possible is what i fond of. After wasting my 3 years in Melbourne, i hope i am not too late in achieving what i suppose to be doing back then. Need to get hold on my nerve and improve in any possible way in many areas that can potentially increase my self-esteem and self-confidence. Still in search of that missing ingredients in me...

The return of the undead

After nearly 2 years and 3 months, i have finally managed to get back with my blogger account. No changes so far. 2010, a new tiger to begin with, roaring towards a brighter future. Semester started of with lesser classes but boredom. Lately, weather has been upside down, wind gusting like typhoon, rainning cats and dogs with surprisingly hailstorm, hitting the mother earth, destroying cars' screen, roof, pedestrian and so on... Horrible to even imagine of the water rushing down main roads, causing traffic jam, shutting down of railway....everything was scattering around. Anyway, Moomba's festival was a disaster, affected by the mother nature but there were fireworks, so those who were eager to experience one of the most outrageous lights in the night still gets to feel the picturesque view of yarra river.