This feeling.....

Sometimes i just wish that i can totally get rid of this feeling, seriously not good for me...The scent of nivea lotion, really gets me kicking for awhile, and later on the temptation of reminiscence over you reappear, trying so hard to just vanish it. So glad that soccer gets me off the random thought...why can't we be just friend rather than avoiding each other...Can't deal with that...This is not who i am...Living in the world full of hatred will soon end up somewhere down the drain...

Dreams and dilemma

Sometimes i will still get this kind of dream which i can't even explain in words. Words are of course one of the most essential and yet powerful to even end one's life...Anyway, why is this dream still running in my head. Making the brain to think of things that should not be in place anymore. So wish that peace can be fulfilled easily and no more hatred. Life would be so wonderful to see happiness scattered all over the place. Losing a friend is something that cannot be accepted just because of some uncleared issue.......

Boredom

It's been like 3 weeks in Melbourne, life is kind of bored. Apart from Uni, nothing much else can be done here. Apply for like job at McD but yet to receive any reply. Sometimes i just wonder if i had made the wise decision to continue my study rather than working. Suddenly felt like working should be much more meaningful than study. Spending substantial amount of money on studying can prove to be better for future purposes or similar regardless. I really want to get a permanent residency and work temporarily here. Develop my knowledge in current field at a place full of opportunity for in depth understanding in food science before stepping out to do my own business if possible is what i fond of. After wasting my 3 years in Melbourne, i hope i am not too late in achieving what i suppose to be doing back then. Need to get hold on my nerve and improve in any possible way in many areas that can potentially increase my self-esteem and self-confidence. Still in search of that missing ingredients in me...

The return of the undead

After nearly 2 years and 3 months, i have finally managed to get back with my blogger account. No changes so far. 2010, a new tiger to begin with, roaring towards a brighter future. Semester started of with lesser classes but boredom. Lately, weather has been upside down, wind gusting like typhoon, rainning cats and dogs with surprisingly hailstorm, hitting the mother earth, destroying cars' screen, roof, pedestrian and so on... Horrible to even imagine of the water rushing down main roads, causing traffic jam, shutting down of railway....everything was scattering around. Anyway, Moomba's festival was a disaster, affected by the mother nature but there were fireworks, so those who were eager to experience one of the most outrageous lights in the night still gets to feel the picturesque view of yarra river.

nothing important

Havent finish trying everything out in the blogger
Anyway, in here i get to shout the name of my gorilla or comet star
Without any restriction or whats so ever
Singsing, since you appear into my life, many things change
I get to love and being love by someone special which i can describe as living in a sanctuary
Well... things were not good as time progress where i desperately needed to see you and cannot achieve so,
And also giving you lots of trouble when i started to nag at you on certain things...
Depression,sorrowness,tiredness, complication, and heartbroken face by me as well when u get closed to other guys
And certain times i felt being abandoned and dumped for thinking too much
I dont really know what is running through your mind
But i just wanted to let you know that i have been missing you dreadfully
and hoping things might turn to a happy ending
I can turn over a new leaf to try satisfy and fulfill your need
Everyday i yearn that you might come to me and smile at me every now and then
Sigh... i just wish things going to be in position as it was back then in Melbourne.

Anyway, Meimei,
heard that you have been going up and down facing hectic life in Melbourne,
i am sorry to have leaving you alone stranded there without and companion
i hope that things well be much better if you occupy your time wisely
and wish that your house searching expedition ended well for you
last but not least, get a job soon if can i find for me .lol.
well, thats about it from me.
going back soon with a wink of an eye.
so just stay in there and wait patiently for my return
will catch up with you soon

Amateur

Wah,
this thing is great, well for a first timer.
never know that blogger can be so much fun.
Good to have this kind of thing to get on with life.
Do not know whether anyone will find out about by blog or not.
haha, who cares, is better to keep it as a secret.
But i do hope that my closes friends can sneak pass their way to here.
Much to learn and even much more to explore. Last do this man!!!